A God Sized Dream

I have to admit, I’ve been hesitant to start this blog.

I really only consider myself what I call “second-hand creative”. What I mean is I feel like I can look at someone else’s ideas and improve and edit them, but I’m not so great at coming up with my own ideas from scratch. Additionally, I’m a pretty private person by nature, so the thought of sharing the details of my life with anyone other than my husband freaks me out.

Recently, however I have been shaken and surprised at how God has used chaos in my life to teach me and grow my heart and I’m restless with an increasing desire for more. I’ve concluded that I may not be the only one feeling this way. My plans have been shredded right before my eyes and I’ve had to deal with things I was previously terrified of. It started with our dog, Tux (our first “baby”) and is continuing with our new baby boy.

From our dog’s destruction of nearly everything to heartbreaking diagnoses for our son, God has been showing us that even when everything is going wrong, he is making it right. When I feel completely out of control, he is still completely in control. When we are at our weakest, he shows his strength in our lives. His paradoxes are flipping our world upside down-or maybe it’s all finally right-side up. The hospital feels like a second home and lack of progress is our normal, and yet words like fostering and adoption have come into our vocabulary. Our hope for the future has changed so much that I don’t recognize it, but the hope is still there.

Life with a “Marley and Me” type dog and a special needs baby is not what we planned and prepared for, but it is our life. This is our journey. And even though it often feels isolating and lonely, we know we’re not alone. So many of you are going through these same types of things and I hope to encourage you with our stories and remind you that you aren’t alone either.

“We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.” (Proverbs 16:1, NLT).




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